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Mood:  blue
im sad/depressed right now... i found out i was bipolar a couple of weeks ago. i did some research on it to find out about it cuz ive never heard of it. i found out ill have it for the rest of my life. and mayeb even my kids'll have it. on the other hand next tuesday itll be 5 weeks that ive gone out with my g/f. ive known her and gone out with here pretty much since kindergarden. weve gone out every year weve had even one class together lol.
im afraid to tell my dad things because he was going to keep this from me so i dont trust him anymore. i kinda only hang around with girls because really all the guys on my team are jerks and try and meke me feel bad buty i laugh in their face and ive come close to getting in a lot of fights.

BOOOO...NY
Mood:  blue
MAN it sucks that im in ny. i mena i love being able to get to see the rest of my family but i would really like to get to see my direct family. i really miss them i i also cannot type at all today. lol. i wish i could do my surveys and get some money but... my cousins comp is to slow to do that.

YAY................................. NY!!!!!!!
Mood:  hug me
Finally im goign to ny. there was a change in plans and my dad has to go up for his mother so i get to go up and stay.... it was kind of a waste to buy the plane ticket though. wow for some reason i still feel like im on the borge assimilator..... a rollercoaster ride at carrowinds. it was really fun till the end cuz ur upsidedown and it stops u really fast cuz ur going really fast... so all the blood in ur body goes to ur head lol. i had a massive headache after it.lol. it was really fun at carrowinds. it was really really hot though. well i g2g cuz i have to get up at 6 tom. to go to NY k by.

Home...Alone...All Week...
Mood:  sad
Topic: Alone
Well... im getting my new lenses for my glasses today. my dad should be home around 2-3 pm to go gte them. my brother is at boyscout camp for the week so...im home alone all week. devon is going to his dad next week for the rest of the summer so...cant see him. but i might be going down to his house on tuesday to see him.(he lives in tomasville) by the way my other post is void in a way cuz its an 80$$ fee both ways, its a 240$$ trip +80. so its like a 380$$ trip to ny. im really bored right now i just got up then i called devon then my dad. dustin is working again today. richard has his family over for the rest of the summer... so i cant wait till july/13/2004 so i can gte on that plane and go to NY.i return on august/2/2004. so yeah im screwed till after this week. cuz next week my brother will be home ans then also my parents cuiz we have to go shopping for school stuff befor i leave. well thats all for now by.

Yay!
Topic: NY baby
Ya i finally got my parenst and my g-ma to let me go to NY. I found a great deal on hotwire.com for like 200.00 but theres a fee cuz im a minor and its a 80$$ fee both ways.(that sucks). Devon is sleeping over again tonight. i called dustin today when i was at the movies with devon and he doesnt have to work next week so hopefully he cna sleep over nexty week. my dad was being mean today cuz i P****D him off the other night so he was all mad when i asked him when he was gonna be off the comp. My brother was AGAIN teasing me today. doesnt matter really just he cna be a jerk sometimes. i was in the pool doign laps. borign lol. welll i must go now.